Life

I'm standing here
right out of the blue
in a ray of light
don't know what to do
don't believe in life anymore

but I've got to hang on
just for the sake of livin'
must get through this
it will cease to excist
but it'll take time
I flip a dime

time will be all mine
my life is like a shell
hollow and empty
getting drowned
by a sea of emotion
thrust upon a shore
barely alive

I will recover
I will crawl to freedom
and take it by its tail
I will shake it
be once more
in the running again
get rid of my pain
that grabs me
again and again
I want to get rid of
and be whole again

I'm downcast
thrown unto the ground
I crawl around
where is my way out
always in myself
got to do it myself
to be whole again

I'll take my stand
be back on the edge
work my way back
and ask myself
what do I want from this life
it's not much, some sanity
to live on in peace
and lie under the appletree
thinkin', this life
it is to be

(c) JR. eightees

Lost once, twice

I was standin' standin' there

in the darkest hour of my life

with the eyes of age starin' at me

she looked at me once 

she looked at me twice

wondering what she could do

to cure my achin' mind

she knew I was lost once 

now twice she knew I had lost more

than I could ever wish for or find

and the hurt it had never died

yes I was lost inside, inside my mind

and the eyes of age were starin' at me

wondering what time could do 

for a lost an' weary mind

(c) JR. 2018