I ain't home

sometimes, the hours are lonely, empty

without any words or space to breath 

sometimes I cannot hide my anger

and speak the words I should speak as

my relief 

and I know there will be no answer

she's not here to hear these  words I breath

but these words I speak I speak in her 

lingering silence 

and are mine and mine only to speak

 

and I leave the walls that surround me

to meet the world once promised to me

'cause this prison of silence is not meant for 

any one not even me

and yes, she should consider her options her new reality

I ain't home and never no more will I be I left my anger 

at the threshold of her ignorance walking out of  her room

walking out of her existing silence

a silence now her own new realty

(c) JR. 2022

 

I knew you so well

living in the wildernis 

of your mind, I knew so well

where I have dwelt , so many times 

where you could not hide
what kept you alive
I knew you by heart 

sometimes a little tough

but no more than that 

and I knew you so well 

your thoughts ringing a bell 

if not with me
maybe with somebody else

they'll get to know you as I did 

I don't know if I can take it 

but there it is, I must leave

guess I have come to know you too well
started ringing too many bells 

the sound a deafening one

I could not hear you think at all  

you have closed your mind for me 

it made a retreat I could not foresee

never did I hear you think again 

when it came to that 

I knew I had to go away 

living in the wilderness 

of your mind

I knew the time had come
I would stop climbing

those mountains inside 

and I knew you so well 

your thoughts would ring a bell 

if not with me 

maybe with somebody else

looking for you one more time 

I realised I had lost you 

your thoughts were somewhere else

'cause I know you too well

I could not get in
the bolt was thrown
a key turned 

memories were burned 

in the fire of your mind 

disappearing into the light 

and I knew you so well 

your thoughts would ring a bell 

if not with me 

maybe with somebody else

(c) JR. 1985


(c) JR. 1985 ??