It never is

 

it never is easy

when a storm comes down with its rain

fighting a fire with its pain

it never is

and I know I'm going to miss you

hanging on somewhere in my mind

telling me your lies were my truth everytime

it never is easy

changing ways you once knew

it never is

(c) JR. 2016

Driftin'

not knowing where I'm going
not knowing where I'll be is the road
I don't see unwinding ahead of me

and I'm counting the people
as I'm going by not knowing
where they're  going
no name comes to my mind

and I'm drifting as I always do
to the end of this road
where no one is waiting for me
or maybe they're just the ones
I don't recognise or see
as I'm drifting by to the end
of a new road into my life

(c) JR. 2020

With me

wherever you go
wherever you are
I'll be there
you'll be there
waiting for me
waiting for it to happen
to bring us together
to go all the way
not to hesitate
yet never to hate

but keep it all in the heart
in the mind, in the soul
we were whole
nothing can take away
nothing can change the day
I met you, cherished you
envied you
for the beauty you had
all of it you shared
with me

with me
only with me
you shared
all you had
without regret
your soul lay bare
for me to care
and keep always
you never questioned me
you trusted me
you were a leaf
floating on the wind
carried to me
to find
to bring home
with me

and you stayed
never complained
never could I fail
in your eyes I was great
we had a lifelong date
I'm so glad for what we have
what we've got
seems to be enough for us
not to be blown away
not to float away
to another place
you stayed
found your tree agian
to celebrate
our union
that took place
and you stayed
never complained
you stayed
with me

(c) JR. eightees-ninetees l

An old love

she crept up on me while I was sleeping

started about what once had been, I sensed

something was wrong, I knew I had to find her

would I know if I saw her, would the years not 

keep her away from me, I got up, still wondering

about her, with guestions at the back of my mind

I couldn't answer any of them, she had dropped

out of sight since a long time, her trail had run cold

there was nothing left to see, all I could do was

dig it up, at its roots she might be

I was getting near, so very close when I read this

ad in the paper and its news was bad, all it said was

I could stop digging, I could stop thinking of ever

finding her

now I've got all the answers and none of them

I like, it now is a never ending story, they take

a long time to die

(c) JR. 2019

Painless=less pain

walking down the streets of my youth
looking here and there for something
old not new

its laughter and pain come to my mind
yesterday's not always, a good thing to
look for and find

'cause your pain, will always become
more, than you'd ever left behind

so now, I'm wandering through my past
and still I miss that light, I then had it
disappeared and left me over night

never to reclaim its right, to shine again
so very bright, a thing of the past, a lot
of pain, a lot of what I never had

but now, shifting through the leafs of time
now I find, my pain has become more or less
less paimless, now I can shine agian, maybe
so very bright, somewhere in time

(c) JR. 2019

Still alive

today I was stunned
you dazed my mind
opened my eyes

afraid to take it
afraid it was not true
caught in my emotions

still there, still alive
cpuld you be the woman
I looked out to

it will be time
giving me the answer

(c) JR. 2019

Sometimes

sometimes
life throws at me ev'ry thing its got
sometimes
I'm not worried I've dealt with a lot

sometimes
life's just that bit too short and ties my
weary mind in a knot

and when I feel like resting my weary
bones my bothered soul is sounding its
retreat

it is when life's becomes too difficult for
me, just for a moment or two, before I blow
my lonely horn in support of its victory

sometimes
life throws at me ev'ry thing its got
sometimes
I'm not worried I've dealt with a lot
sometimes....

life's too short

(c) JR. 2018

It never is

it never is easy, it never is
when a storm comes down
with its rain

it never is, fighting a fire
with its pain, an' I know I'm
gonna miss you

hangin' on somewhere in my mind
tellin' me your lies were my truth
ev'ry time an' all the time

it never is easy, changin' ways you
once knew it never is an' I know I'm
gonna miss you

hangin' on  somewhere in my mind
tellin' me your lies were my truth
ev'ry time

it never is easy changin' ways you
knew it never is, an' I know I'm gonna
miss you

I know I will

(c) JR 2018

Going somewhere

somehow we're goin' somewhere
meeting the winter with care
treating my mind with care
longin' for the sun not there

how come it's not there
not shining through my hair
it's frozen me into a deep sleep
hibernation time is here

has come out of nowhere
nature's little timebomb has gone off
bringin rain, cloudy days, stormy nights
blindin' light snow an' ice

right at your doorstep
another try to get through
thawing out the ice takin' what's mine
takin' what's there

it's been years, where's that smile
it was wiped out when I came back
from that long ride at the edge of life

(c) JR. eightees

Grapes on the vine

she chills me to the bone
her body's my mind and soul
sweet and tender like a sunrise

she's my territory's only game
she's the one I gave my name
full of desire this illumination

this prophecy of taste so devine
she brings me her total sacrefice
her loyalty lies with her grapes
on the vine

(c) JR 2016

A valid reason

walkin' down the streets of my youth
lookin' here an' there  and ev'rywhere
tryin' to find something old not new

laughter an' pain come to my mind
yesterday's not always a good thing
to look for an' find

'cause your pain might be waitin' there
an' might have become more than you'd
ever thought you'd find

so does this quest of mine, does it have
a valid reason to continue or should I just
let it be an' get on with life

I think if I saw reason an' I do, it's time
to quit while I'm ahead an' let others decide
if they have it in them

to see reason an' then if they do reach out
for you, thing's they might not be in time
the offer might have been withdrawn

by somethin' so futile an' unreasonable...
as time

(c) JR. 2018

I knew you so well

living in the wildernis 

of your mind, I knew so well

where I have dwelt , so many times 

where you could not hide
what kept you alive
I knew you by heart 

sometimes a little tough

but no more than that 

and I knew you so well 

your thoughts ringing a bell 

if not with me
maybe with somebody else

they'll get to know you as I did 

I don't know if I can take it 

but there it is, I must leave

guess I have come to know you too well
started ringing too many bells 

the sound a deafening one

I could not hear you think at all  

you have closed your mind for me 

it made a retreat I could not foresee

never did I hear you think again 

when it came to that 

I knew I had to go away 

living in the wilderness 

of your mind

I knew the time had come
I would stop climbing

those mountains inside 

and I knew you so well 

your thoughts would ring a bell 

if not with me 

maybe with somebody else

looking for you one more time 

I realised I had lost you 

your thoughts were somewhere else

'cause I know you too well

I could not get in
the bolt was thrown
a key turned 

memories were burned 

in the fire of your mind 

disappearing into the light 

and I knew you so well 

your thoughts would ring a bell 

if not with me 

maybe with somebody else

(c) JR. 1985


(c) JR. 1985 ??

Less pain-painless

walkin' down the streets of my youth
lookin' here' an' there for somethin'
old not new

its laughter an' its pain come to my mind
yesterday's not always a good thing to
look for and find

'cause your pain will always become
more than you'd ever left behind

so now I'm wandering through my
past an' its pieces an' still I miss
that light I then had

it disappeared an' left me over night
never to reclaim its right to shine again
never that very bright

a thing of the past a lot of pain of what
I never had, but now shiftin' through the
leafs of my time

now I find my pain has become more or
less, painless, now I can shine again that
very bright maybe somewhere in time

(c) JR. 2018

Battle of wits

out of the thunder, came a man
more mellow in decision more
eased of mind

more wisdom gained, out of time
many years on the ride, brought
him back

to this time, a siege, a batlle of wits
added wisdom dealt with, to become
stronger in spirit

(c) JR. 1985

The rules

there's nothin' I can do, nothin' I can say,
there's nothin' here for you to want me again,
an' you leavin' wasn't on my mind,

when your  love came to town, it was found,
then just died...leavin me no reason,
just a "why',

but there it is your love didn't stay it was just
a game, you love to play without warnin' you
went and took it all away

leavin' me your empty name, you layed down
the rules, you played the game, and all it did was ...
take



(c) JR.  2018

On the vine

she chills me to the bone
her body is my mind an' soul
sweet an' tender like a sunrise

she's my territory's only game
she's like the one I gave my name
full o' desire this illumination

this prophecy of taste so devine
she brings me her total sacrefice
her loyalty lies with her grapes
on the vine

(c) JR. 2016

Sensation

walking up to my staircase of heaven
not knowing what I will see, feel or find

as where I'm goin' it has no time or place
in the aftermath of a mind where my soul

is breating its new surroundings restricted
to a sensation that can only live in the loss

of a deceased mind,

(c) JR. 2018

Willpower

my mind is filled with tears
never crying

my heart is filled with pieces
never breaking

my days are short and long lived
and time has come never healing

yet willpower is doing just that

JR 2018

Where time has no say

time the essence of life is runnnin' out of time
and there's nothing I can do to change its mind
my time is runnin' out of its time

and it's an angel's lie thinkin' time has no end
thinkin' there's angels 'round the next bend
thinkin' heaven's where rainbows end

and immortality's just a place where  angels play
and heaven has no end, it is where time ends where
immortality flies on the wing, high, and time
has no answer where Love resides

where Love stares you straight in the face
with closed eyes and as time shows no mercy
in its ending it has no say over where 'Love Eternal'
flies on the wing high


(c) JR. 2018

Doomsday

rundown, exhausted and spent
I'm lying on my back kickin'...
against the walls of my misfortune

know the feelin' ?

when your mind's out of breath
and breathing weighs heavy
on your chest

and your heart's poundin' away
waitin' for its Doomsday

that's the feelin'

time to make up your mind
listen to the signs, listen and
maybe you're in time

fallin' an inch short of the finish
story of my life

(c) JR. 8-1-2018