Painless=less pain

walking down the streets of my youth
looking here and there for something
old not new

its laughter and pain come to my mind
yesterday's not always, a good thing to
look for and find

'cause your pain, will always become
more, than you'd ever left behind

so now, I'm wandering through my past
and still I miss that light, I then had it
disappeared and left me over night

never to reclaim its right, to shine again
so very bright, a thing of the past, a lot
of pain, a lot of what I never had

but now, shifting through the leafs of time
now I find, my pain has become more or less
less paimless, now I can shine agian, maybe
so very bright, somewhere in time

(c) JR. 2019

So tender so cruel

as the dream of my youth, where I found love
so real, yet never knew, is fadin', it leads me into
a new mornin'

where my heart's achin' as I'm wakin', bringin' me
back the only realty it ever knew, somethin' there
in my mind

chose to be tender, yet so cruel, as it brought  up
all my yesterdays with you, where I was full of
the tenderness and love

the ones, you never knew of, it then comes to my mind,
how tender, yet so cruel, a dream can be when it is
overruled by all those yesterdays

in an attempt to please, but leaves you behind in its
wake, so tender, so cruel, an dreams, ...
do they ever come true

(c) JR. 2018

A valid reason

walkin' down the streets of my youth
lookin' here an' there  and ev'rywhere
tryin' to find something old not new

laughter an' pain come to my mind
yesterday's not always a good thing
to look for an' find

'cause your pain might be waitin' there
an' might have become more than you'd
ever thought you'd find

so does this quest of mine, does it have
a valid reason to continue or should I just
let it be an' get on with life

I think if I saw reason an' I do, it's time
to quit while I'm ahead an' let others decide
if they have it in them

to see reason an' then if they do reach out
for you, thing's they might not be in time
the offer might have been withdrawn

by somethin' so futile an' unreasonable...
as time

(c) JR. 2018

Less pain-painless

walkin' down the streets of my youth
lookin' here' an' there for somethin'
old not new

its laughter an' its pain come to my mind
yesterday's not always a good thing to
look for and find

'cause your pain will always become
more than you'd ever left behind

so now I'm wandering through my
past an' its pieces an' still I miss
that light I then had

it disappeared an' left me over night
never to reclaim its right to shine again
never that very bright

a thing of the past a lot of pain of what
I never had, but now shiftin' through the
leafs of my time

now I find my pain has become more or
less, painless, now I can shine again that
very bright maybe somewhere in time

(c) JR. 2018