Even a silence

suddenly

long into a silence

he sentenced himself to

goin' into a retreat

for something

he thought he should

is now coming back to him

more than he ever knew

more than it ever should

'cause a silence

should be a silence

even a silence

should be silent to

(c) JR. 2023

Your world

when I am in my world

I can never be in yours

holding on to something

I can never possess

never feel its richness

never feel your soul

so much I want to have

and when I go, leave and turn away

I know I will never come back to stay

and my heart will die every moment

every day

so when I am in my world

I can never be in yours

holding on to something

I can never possess

never feel its richness

never feel your soul

so much I want to have

(c) JR. 2022

Time the wilderness

 

where are we

we are away from the distance we travelled in

and yes, we have reached our place of choosing

and yes, something is wrong...our future...its gone

we are stuck in the middle of time

and time, as always, has a mind of its own

it won't move, it won't move aside

so...do we know where to go

is it out there will we recognise it

when we come to that wilderness, time is

where our future lies, will we know

and yes, again we are on the road

walking through time

walking along its guiding light

we are out there with a purpose

we are out there with a goal

we are walking the road

where our fame and glory is waiting

but will it be our future when we reach it

will it be waiting

(c) JR. 2021

Floating

I have to live this life
one thing I must do
something you get
born into
I feel like floating
down a stream
don't know
where it leads me
I just can't see
it's like a dream
floating
in different directions
all of them new
it's all a surprise
what I find
It's called life
it's a sunrise
a new dawn
I'm floating
down a stream
can't see
it coming to an end
somewhere, somehow
I believe
there's a place
where I'll stay
come to a rest
somehow, somewhere
this stream will end

(c) JR. eightees-ninetees

Wondering

we miss what we feel
and feel what we miss
it is out there somewhere

can we have it can we hold it
can we wonder where we are
or...might be

it's something we miss
and we miss what we feel
we know what it is
this what we think is it real
we wonder

and if we would find each other
would we be complete
we wonder

our wondering is complete

(c) JR. 2020

An old love

she crept up on me while I was sleeping

started about what once had been, I sensed

something was wrong, I knew I had to find her

would I know if I saw her, would the years not 

keep her away from me, I got up, still wondering

about her, with guestions at the back of my mind

I couldn't answer any of them, she had dropped

out of sight since a long time, her trail had run cold

there was nothing left to see, all I could do was

dig it up, at its roots she might be

I was getting near, so very close when I read this

ad in the paper and its news was bad, all it said was

I could stop digging, I could stop thinking of ever

finding her

now I've got all the answers and none of them

I like, it now is a never ending story, they take

a long time to die

(c) JR. 2019

Painless=less pain

walking down the streets of my youth
looking here and there for something
old not new

its laughter and pain come to my mind
yesterday's not always, a good thing to
look for and find

'cause your pain, will always become
more, than you'd ever left behind

so now, I'm wandering through my past
and still I miss that light, I then had it
disappeared and left me over night

never to reclaim its right, to shine again
so very bright, a thing of the past, a lot
of pain, a lot of what I never had

but now, shifting through the leafs of time
now I find, my pain has become more or less
less paimless, now I can shine agian, maybe
so very bright, somewhere in time

(c) JR. 2019

Don't tear me down

where is all the love
does it lie in the past
tell me you once cared
tell me once you shared

don't tear me down
leave something for me
bring me back my dawn
leave some future in me

you wanted to dance
you had your chance
you didn't take it
you just wanted to dance

so don't tear me down
leave this sad ol' house
leave me in one piece
leave me the air I breathe

leavin' doesn't mean
you've put out the light
a flame might falter but
never ceases to shine

(c) JR. eightees

Lost in my words

a strange sensation ran through me
I was at the station I was knocked
out, he had me beat

lost in my words I tried to explain
wasn't it all a mistake, tried to plead
he wouldn't give in didn't he love me

we had somethin' goin' goin' down
well, but he was leavin' goin' out
of town

throwin' my life to pieces leavin'
me hell, lost in my words I felt the
hurt comin' on strong

my screams rang out almost blew
my mind for all the lies that wasted
my life

caught my breath he finally went
to that prety girl an' all to the one
he loved best

leavin' me here sheddin' my tears
my love was dyin' the ashes were
blown away

words came back to me again

(c) JR. eightees

A valid reason

walkin' down the streets of my youth
lookin' here an' there  and ev'rywhere
tryin' to find something old not new

laughter an' pain come to my mind
yesterday's not always a good thing
to look for an' find

'cause your pain might be waitin' there
an' might have become more than you'd
ever thought you'd find

so does this quest of mine, does it have
a valid reason to continue or should I just
let it be an' get on with life

I think if I saw reason an' I do, it's time
to quit while I'm ahead an' let others decide
if they have it in them

to see reason an' then if they do reach out
for you, thing's they might not be in time
the offer might have been withdrawn

by somethin' so futile an' unreasonable...
as time

(c) JR. 2018

The long goodbye

when you left for no reason with all that anger inside
you left but you never left us comin' in like an angel
leavin' with a lie but on your ride of the long good bye
you never left us you just had something on your mind

and I know some sweet day I will hear that ol' familiar
knock from way back in time and I'll know you've come
back from your ride on the long good bye with that same
ol' lie never admitting you just couldn't leave us behind


(c)  JR. 2018