Fire

I've seen the fire

I've seen its pain and I've seen its rain

I've seen its death and I've seen it fade

(c) JR. 2025

Endgame

there's a longin, but I don't want

to feel the pain again, resting on my soul

moving forward every day, in the endgame

promising my self

one day it will get better an' fade

into the emptiness of a yesterday

leaving me a reason, maybe, to try again

in the aftermath where only delusion was

a game on my mind

a game, lost in my mistake

but still remains in the emptiness

of a yesterday

(c) JR. 2024

Sunrise in the morning

when the night comes for me

and its darkness is the pain I feel

when my heart freezes over

'cause you're no longer

my sunrise in the morning

I so much want to see

you're gone God knows where

you made a retreat I couldn't foresee

somewhere out there living the good life

wanting to be free

and I'm out here, wondering

what went wrong, what did I miss

what heartbeat became unreal

I have no answers

I'm not trying to find them

'cause there's no reason to explain

what happened here

so I'm picking up the pieces

packing suitcases, not coming back

no more sunrises, no more mornings

to meet

and I do what I always do

moving on, closing doors

opening new ones

no use wondering about the why's

the world is a great place to be

always new oppertunities  to meet

that's how I look at life

feelin' just fine

(c) JR. 2023

Outcome

a pain has come to haunt me

there being no escape 

and it feeling so wrong

when hate has become 

the love, you need

I don't know where to leave it

but then again, 

when hate is thrown 

into a pit of fire

it will be the only outcome 

love will ever need

to rise again

a pain has gone and left me

(c) JR. 2022

Solitude

sometimes, time doesn't live up to its promises

and takes me down a road I never wanted to go

I'd give anything, to again experience the sweetness

a love can bring

I know the pain, when it doesn't, stops and is taken away

from you, beyond your control and then it is lost forever

the truth is, once it has died in that way it is hard to find

and almost impossible to retrieve again a chance is only

given once, never twice

so when you do live on into your solitude

memories are those pieces of happiness 

that are left to you, until their silence finds you

(c) JR. 2022

Gedichten Compilatie: My Love, Excistence, Loving darkness,Lone wolf, Sunrise.

 My Love

my love's a love for someone I cannot have

my love's a love for someone who doesn't know

I do posses this love I have

and my love's a reality, reality rejects

a realistic yet to me unrealistic reason

causing a pain I do not want to have

but then again it's reality

that keeps me in check

JR. 2022

there's no tomorrow, no yesterday

no daybreak, no incoming night 

there's only you

JR. 2022

Existence

as life has become a stranger to my past

and the road ahead is a friend I never met

why is it, my existence is known to everybodyelse

but not to me

JR. 2022

Loving Darkness

leaning back, reminiscing

what once was

reminiscing all those yesterdays

bright and sad

yes, I love the darkness

looking back, leaning back on my front porch

stars in the sky, I wonder why

why darkness can be so bright

JR. 2022

Lone wolf

as you lost your soul

knowing she'd never be your mate

you will always be that lonely wolf

whose soul was taken

but never found a way to stay

JR. 2022

Sunrise

and you think of those days

filled with a sunrise

you thought would never set

yet, when it did, it never rose again

JR. 2022

My Love

my love was a love for someone I could not have 

my love was a love for someone who didn't know

I did poses this love I had

and my love was a reality, my reality did reject

a realistic yet to me an unrealistic reason, causing a pain

I did not want to have

but then again reality kicked in and kept me in check

There's no tomorrow

no yesterday, no daybreak, no incoming night

there's only you

(c) JR. 2022

Love Story

 no more reasons to cry, no more years to go by

no more words to say in pain, no more anger to remain

no more lessons to be learned, no more reasons to stay

so,...if you're out there planning your next move

it might be a good time to reflect on what your causing  

when you do

we've come to where a Love story's a Love Story

'no way ' so let us talk, wish each other well and 

let this exchange of words, find its peace in the valleys 

of our soul where only sanity is the way

but if you're still out there planning your next move

not reflecting at what you do, think it through let this 

barrage of words

find a way to seize in our valleys of reason

where we say goodbye and walk away to where

solitude will become our best friend for many a day

(c) JR. 2022

Life

as the pain reaches its outer limits

I still think I can take 

the trophy life

is

(c) JR.

May not be all that much

 

A face can only excist

with eyes that can  live and see inside

the thoughts they hide, the fear that's there

and the love it wants to share

the coldness it casts in despair

it may not be all that much

but it is all what they've got

yet eyes can be tamed, eyes can even destruct and maime

eyes can turn insane if jealousy is the name

eyes can scream wild for what they want and didn't get

and yess the eyes, they can be bad

it might not be all that much, but the eyes can make it a lot

eyes... are the face, they express anger and laughter

sadness and badness, almost any thing at will

love for life, the pain and the fear inside

its all in the eyes, it may not be all that much

but it is all what they've got

(c) JR. 80's

It never is

 

it never is easy

when a storm comes down with its rain

fighting a fire with its pain

it never is

and I know I'm going to miss you

hanging on somewhere in my mind

telling me your lies were my truth everytime

it never is easy

changing ways you once knew

it never is

(c) JR. 2016

Empty

empty is how I feel
empty where it hurts
can feel the pain
when I see her again
going through that door
just don't seem to take it
as well as I did before
my armour is showing fatigue
my strenght is getting weak
a battle has not yet been won

I must hold on as long as I can
take it for another run
and I'm feeling empty
tired of playing that same old game
over and over again
but I must go on
see the setting of yet another sun
it will be many days and nights
'till again she will arive

and she knows I'll be waiting
like all those years before
she'll stay, laugh and play
'till emptiness hits back
when she has left
with it dies my laugh
I just don't seem to take it
as well as I did before
how long must this go on
'till I can settle the score

(c) JR. eightees

A lonely road

somewhere, out there someone's waiting
walking down a lonely road he has never
seen or known

and he's looking about him waiting not
seeing the richness in his life, he thinks
it's only pain and sorrow that have arrived

now looking ahead into the distance he sees
something out there, a stir on that lonely road
it's that light of fortune coming his way

it has come to take his pains and sorrows
and turn them away

(c) JR. 2019

Painless=less pain

walking down the streets of my youth
looking here and there for something
old not new

its laughter and pain come to my mind
yesterday's not always, a good thing to
look for and find

'cause your pain, will always become
more, than you'd ever left behind

so now, I'm wandering through my past
and still I miss that light, I then had it
disappeared and left me over night

never to reclaim its right, to shine again
so very bright, a thing of the past, a lot
of pain, a lot of what I never had

but now, shifting through the leafs of time
now I find, my pain has become more or less
less paimless, now I can shine agian, maybe
so very bright, somewhere in time

(c) JR. 2019

Road of my misfortune

as I'm walking down, this road of my misfortune
where I lost that touch, where my heart once was
I ask myself, 'when will my future decide, to take
a hold of me again', as it did so many times before

as I know it will, as it always does, easing my pain
caressing my soul, soothing my weary mind, stroking
my hair against the winds of time, on this road of my
misfortune

and yes, the times they will be better, my eyes will
shine that new born light and my laugh will clear
the sky, yes, my happiness will strike me again

(c) JR. 2019

Thunder, the sound

when happiness is the pain you're feelin'
and tears the road you're travellin'
somethin's gone wrong

when thunder's the sound you're hearin', and
skies over head, turn into that pale colour of
grey, somethin's gone wrong

since you went away, thunder's been rollin'
skies have been closin' in, turnin' into that
sad sound of rain

and life...messes with me all day...

she knows

(c) JR. 2019

Wrongs of life

Has anybody asked me about the pain that has been
has anybody asked me about the troubles I've seen
has anybody felt the wrongs life sometimes breaths
would it have been different if strenght had not been

would it have forsaken me had my armour been pierced
it would have had it not been, so if you ask me how it was
it was huge it was that wrong of life nobody wants to see
it was one of those dreams only meant for me to dream

an' yes, I dream ev'ry second, ev'ry minute, ev'ry hour
ev'ry breath I inhale, ev'ry drop of water I waste away
an' ev'ry day I hope I can make through to another day
an' ev'ry day grants me a moment thakin' life again

so if you ask me how was life today I stare in anger
is he jokin' is he sane has he seen the wrongs of life
does he know what it is like when it wrongs you again
he doesn't dream 'cause life has not wronged him today

an' yes I dream ev'ry hour ev'ry day ev'ry breath I inhale
an' yes I dream ev'ry hour ev'ry day ev'ry breath I inhale
an' yes I dream, I dream, dream an' dream

(c)  JR. 2018

Empty

empty is how I feel
empty is where it hurts
can feel the pain
when I see her again
going through that door

just don't seem to take it
as well as I did before
my armour is showing fatigue
my strenght is getting weak
a battle has not yet been won

I must hold on as long as I can
take it for another run
and I'm feelin' empty

tired of playin' that same old game
over and over again
but I nmust go on see the setting
of yet another sun

it will be many days and nights
'till again she will arrive
and she knows I'll be waiting
like all those years before

she'll stay laugh and play
'till emptiness hits back
when she has left
with it dies my laugh

I just don't seem to take it
as well as I did before
how long must this go on
'till I can settle the score

(c) JR.  eightees

She knows

when happiness is the pain you're feelin'
and tears the road you're travellin'
somethin's gone wrong

when thunder is the sound you're hearing
and skies over head turn into that pale colour of grey
somethin's gone wrong

since she went away, thunder's been rollin'
skies have been closin' up' turnin' into that
sad sound of rain

and life, messes with me all day...

she knows


(c) JR. 2019

It never is

it never is easy, it never is
when a storm comes down
with its rain

it never is, fighting a fire
with its pain, an' I know I'm
gonna miss you

hangin' on somewhere in my mind
tellin' me your lies were my truth
ev'ry time an' all the time

it never is easy, changin' ways you
once knew it never is an' I know I'm
gonna miss you

hangin' on  somewhere in my mind
tellin' me your lies were my truth
ev'ry time

it never is easy changin' ways you
knew it never is, an' I know I'm gonna
miss you

I know I will

(c) JR 2018